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Hey everybody!
As this post reaches you on sunday I am in sunny (haha oh dear, maybe not) Norfolk, on the coast, ready to go inland to Cambridge to stay with my aunt and uncle for a night, then on to Cambridge (my favouritest place in the world ever).
Then it’s on to Stratford Upon Avon, Shakespeare’s birthplace (I’m scared…my reduction of Hamlet to sock-puppetry might make him mad at me), then Oxford, then Winchester. Then home, where I will be able to catch up to the internet again and sit back and marvel.
I hope everyone is reading a book like I challenged them to do!
Lastly, CHEKKOUT THIS GIRL. HER COMICS ARE AMAZING. Especially if you’re even vaguely interested in history. Or..anything else she makes comics about.
This comic is about Napoleon: 
http://www.katebeaton.com/Site/Welcome_files/franklin.jpg
And finally, the actual website containing her comments (warning, there are a few cursewords but it’s done in the name of funny and not… mean. so. IDK. )
www.katebeaton.com visit it!
So by the time you’re reading this I’ll be on a large ship in the middle of the carribean on a cruise to celebrate my cousin’s graduation from college. I’m writing this on Friday the 13th at 11 Pm and I leave in six hours…ugh….that means I have to get up in five…but I digress. He is graduating from a college in D.C. and is now going into working with my cousin doing some video production stuff. He’s graduating and now he’s going to be doing something that he loves. I am so jealous. Don’t get me wrong. I think I’ll make a great attorney, I think that I will like it a lot, I’ll get to live somewhere that I want to live, I’ll get to make a decent amount of money…I’ll get to add letters to the end of my name but if I’m honest really honest, this wouldn’t be my dream job.
My heart lives on the stage and in theatre in all of it’s forms. Everyday that I’m away from it, separated completely I feel incomplete…I racked my mind for something less cliche to say but that’s just it…it’s the truth. I have thought in the last weeks for the first time of actually giving it a shot. I’ve dreamed of it yes, but never actually considered that it’s my life and I do have that option. I’m slightly embarressed to admit that I have this dream, I expect the “Yeah well who doesn’t want that” or to have people assume that I’m a small town girl who has an unrealistic understanding of my skill level. I cannot address that here….what can you prove about theatrical or musical talent in print? I think lately I’ve been thinking I would rather go out and reach for my dream and fail than to not try at all. I know that sounds cheesy but really wouldn’t it be better to know you couldn’t have had your dream and take chances with the rest of your life (for me that would be law school applications) than to live comfortably wondering for the rest of your life “what if”.
So I guess I’m posting this here, first because it’s a large part of my inner termoil at the moment which gives you all some insight into my soul. But really….honestly….aside from loving the movie Dead Poet’s Society and quoting back to me “carpe diem”…would you? Would you sacrifice a perfectly acceptable conciliation prize to reach for the first? Do you understand my hesitance in discussing this with people. I suppose it’s that we’re all in same boat…we’re all in school struggling with the future and feeling pressure to be successful, the economies a mess and this and that. I really don’t feel as though I’m just a coward. I just feel like this is complicated… I’m not looking for answers but maybe the beginning of a discussion (that I at least need to have with myself) that will lead to a decision. Well I’ll leave you with my thoughts for the night and read what you think when I get back. I’ll have pictures and videos and lots of lovely things to share and tell…they’ll most likely be much more upbeat. Maybe even a funny story about my father panicking…he’s got an incredible fear of flying. Can’t wait to catch up.
DFTBA
Brittany
